For those that don’t already know; on New Years Day 2013, right now 29 days ago. I lost my partner and husband of 4 years Michael to a freak tragic horrible asthma attack. He was 29 years old, the light of my life, my soul mate. The man that knows me better then I know myself. Forgive me for not writing more about it right now, I’m still very broken, and thinking about it will break me more and I’ve been having an okish day.
Some days are better then others, sometimes I’ll notice something of his and it will consume all my thought and I can’t function properly after that. That happened this morning while I was getting ready for some work meetings in the city. I saw his hair brush and for some reason picked it up, and that ended it for the day. I’ve been very upset since.
Anyway I digress of why I was posting this tonight.
I’m very new to blogging but I think It’ll be good to write out how I feel on something other then Twitter (@Ghemithunts)
So I got word from someone who wishes to remain nameless, that Blizzard and Dave Kosak were contacted in the hopes that some kind of memorial could be put into the game. Needless to say I was absolutely floored when I was exploring the PTR and came across my husband standing there reading a map. Elloric my loving, goofy, never knows where he’s going in game husband! When I first saw the character standing there I said to myself “NO FU*KING… WHAT…THAT CAN’T BE… OMFG THAT IS” I lost all breath in my lungs and started shaking and crying. I was hoping *maybe* a grey vendor trash item, but I’m just a twitter knownish hunter, surely people at Blizzard have better people to think about then me.
I’m nothing special in this 10 million+ people game world. I’m just me. My friends in my guild and from twitter made an amazing memorial in Darnassus happen for me and as I was walking to the shrine area just outside the city gates I was blown away and so overwhelmed at how many people were there to show their love and respect.
Words truly do not express the feelings inside me when I saw everyone there, people I know and respect from the community and people I couldn’t pick out if I tried. A wonderful friend Joe (WoWMartiean) recorded the memorial for me so I would be able to watch it again, and I am so thankful. It’s brought me some comfort on the really hard nights.
So here is the ultimate reason why I decided to write this tonight, other then I was finally able to without losing my marbles. I want to show you Elloric (Michael) my love that I can visit until the servers fade for the last time. I am truly honored, humbled and my thanks transcend words.
To everyone out there in the community; from the deepest bottom part of my heart I say Thank You. It doesnt feel like enough, but I cannot find words to express my thanks to everyone. This is an amazing community and I am so proud to be a part of it.
